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Sick AND Tired
Jul. 8th, 2005 03:52 pm[private]
Paige is sick and tired of this timeline problem. She is tired of explaining that things were different before she went to the Elders. She is actually tired of not hearing the jingle from the Elders. She is tired of Cole and hearing all about Phoebe. Phoebe this and Phoebe that. She loves her sister with all of her heart, but knows that even the Phoebe she knew wouldn't have put up with Cole after everything. Just the fact that this timeline somehow let him creep back in between the cracks is something that Paige wants to deal with. Fast.
She is tired of not knowing why she is there. She is tired of feeling completely helpless. She is tired of feeling unwelcome in her own house. She just wants things to go back to the way they were.
She misses Leo, and Baby Wyatt. She misses the smile and comforting looks that Leo would give her and the encouragement that she could get through whatever obstacle was in front of her. She missed knowing that when she saw Piper and Leo that there was a chance for a happily ever after. Instead Piper was wandering around with that Todd person. Who may or may not be a Demon.
Paige had been pacing in the attic for a while wondering just what she could do about it. She had thought of leaving the manor. Just getting out and as far away from it all as she could. She knew that her sisters wouldn't let her. Even if she is a 'different' sister, even if she is from a different variation of their timeline they wouldn't let her leave.
She had been looking in the Book of Shadows for a Spell. A spell to share memories. She wanted to show Piper how happy she had been with Leo. Show her the Sons she had and all the ups and downs. She wanted to make Phoebe see how amazing her life was without Cole. And how much stronger she had become through dealing with the loss of him. She had been looking for the spell. Problem was, that it wasn't there. This timeline didn't have it in their book.
She would have to make one.
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[letters to my Sisters]
Piper -
I am sorry that I am doing it this way, but you know me I get all emotional and just change the subject when it comes to stuff like this. I know that things are strange with me here. More than strange they are sort of distant. I never dreamt that the three of us would ever feel so far away, but I feel it now. There is a huge gap between us, and I don't know what to do to pull us closer together.
I brought you back to San Fransico in order to have you help me figure out what is wrong with this timeline, so we can fix it. I know it is selfish of me to think that this timeline needs to be fixed, but it is the only explaination I can think of. Chris is here and I am here. It just makes sense to me.
I also REALLY don't feel like Cole should be in the Manor. Ex-Demon / Demon no matter what we happen to have the Nexus sitting right in our very own basement. I just don't like that much concentrated power right below his feet. I also don't like the way he has been treating me. He has this entirely above it all attitude and is making me feel completely unwelcome. In my own house.
So I think we need to just talk, or sort this out or kick him out... heh. Either way we need to figure out what it going on, because if we don't? I am just going to leave. I won't be a bystander and watch the future of your timeline go down the crapper.
So I think we all need to talk. So when you get this come find me.
Paige
Phoebe -
I know it is hard trying to deal with everything you have going on in your own life and then add the trouble that I am bringing in there too. I mean the truth of it is that I am probably not the Paige you remember. In fact I know I am not the Paige you remember. I am still Paige, just a different one. It shouldn't be that hard, but I know that it is. You want us all to be happy, but I just don't see how that can happen when I see you everyday with the man that I knew to make your life miserable. I watched you pull yourself up again from the dispair. It made you such a strong person. It made you the Sister that I looked up to. Now I see you and you seem happy, but you also seem so wrapped up in Cole that you have become blind to what he is or was.
He is thoughtless, and doesn't care what he says to me. I understand that I am not the most accepting person when it comes to him. I don't trust him, and I don't let that fact stay hidden. However I have tried to be accepting of him, it just doesn't help when he openly tells me that he is glad that my timeline didn't happen here. That to me says that he is glad that you didn't become that strong woman that I looked up to. It means that he is glad that Piper and Leo didn't get married and have two amazing and very powerful sons. It means that he is glad that I am not the Paige that I am today, and that is just too hurtful for me to even deal with.
He makes me feel unwelcome in the house. He makes me feel unwelcome in general, and every time he speaks to me it feels like a lie. I am sorry, I know that isn't what you wanted to hear, but that is the truth of the matter, and you know me I am not about to keep quiet about anything.
So I think we all need to talk. So when you get this come find me. Hey you can call my name and I can test out my nifty Whitelighter Skills.
Paige
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[locked to Chris]
Hey. This place sucks. Cole is an ass. Piper is dating some shmuck. No one is out actually killing Demons. You are always somewhere else, no doubt with some girl. I am stuck here in the Manor with the Ex-Source of all Evil, which hey I don't think you can really be. I have thought up a plan to make my sisters see what my timeline was like, but the Transfer Memories Spell isn't in the Book. Cause this timeline is CRAZY and doesn't have it. I need your help, and also I am hopefully going to have a sit down with Phoebe and Piper about all this, and having a bit of back up? Might help.
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[private]
Paige sets the letter to Piper in her room on the table beside her bed. Phoebe's though is a bit tricky. She needs to put it somewhere that Cole won't be all snooping at it. So she decides to put it in Phoebe's purse, beneath the tampon. It might be a bit before she gets it but at least Paige is sure that Cole won't be rifling through the Feminine Protection these days.
[/private]
Paige is sick and tired of this timeline problem. She is tired of explaining that things were different before she went to the Elders. She is actually tired of not hearing the jingle from the Elders. She is tired of Cole and hearing all about Phoebe. Phoebe this and Phoebe that. She loves her sister with all of her heart, but knows that even the Phoebe she knew wouldn't have put up with Cole after everything. Just the fact that this timeline somehow let him creep back in between the cracks is something that Paige wants to deal with. Fast.
She is tired of not knowing why she is there. She is tired of feeling completely helpless. She is tired of feeling unwelcome in her own house. She just wants things to go back to the way they were.
She misses Leo, and Baby Wyatt. She misses the smile and comforting looks that Leo would give her and the encouragement that she could get through whatever obstacle was in front of her. She missed knowing that when she saw Piper and Leo that there was a chance for a happily ever after. Instead Piper was wandering around with that Todd person. Who may or may not be a Demon.
Paige had been pacing in the attic for a while wondering just what she could do about it. She had thought of leaving the manor. Just getting out and as far away from it all as she could. She knew that her sisters wouldn't let her. Even if she is a 'different' sister, even if she is from a different variation of their timeline they wouldn't let her leave.
She had been looking in the Book of Shadows for a Spell. A spell to share memories. She wanted to show Piper how happy she had been with Leo. Show her the Sons she had and all the ups and downs. She wanted to make Phoebe see how amazing her life was without Cole. And how much stronger she had become through dealing with the loss of him. She had been looking for the spell. Problem was, that it wasn't there. This timeline didn't have it in their book.
She would have to make one.
[/private]
[letters to my Sisters]
Piper -
I am sorry that I am doing it this way, but you know me I get all emotional and just change the subject when it comes to stuff like this. I know that things are strange with me here. More than strange they are sort of distant. I never dreamt that the three of us would ever feel so far away, but I feel it now. There is a huge gap between us, and I don't know what to do to pull us closer together.
I brought you back to San Fransico in order to have you help me figure out what is wrong with this timeline, so we can fix it. I know it is selfish of me to think that this timeline needs to be fixed, but it is the only explaination I can think of. Chris is here and I am here. It just makes sense to me.
I also REALLY don't feel like Cole should be in the Manor. Ex-Demon / Demon no matter what we happen to have the Nexus sitting right in our very own basement. I just don't like that much concentrated power right below his feet. I also don't like the way he has been treating me. He has this entirely above it all attitude and is making me feel completely unwelcome. In my own house.
So I think we need to just talk, or sort this out or kick him out... heh. Either way we need to figure out what it going on, because if we don't? I am just going to leave. I won't be a bystander and watch the future of your timeline go down the crapper.
So I think we all need to talk. So when you get this come find me.
Paige
Phoebe -
I know it is hard trying to deal with everything you have going on in your own life and then add the trouble that I am bringing in there too. I mean the truth of it is that I am probably not the Paige you remember. In fact I know I am not the Paige you remember. I am still Paige, just a different one. It shouldn't be that hard, but I know that it is. You want us all to be happy, but I just don't see how that can happen when I see you everyday with the man that I knew to make your life miserable. I watched you pull yourself up again from the dispair. It made you such a strong person. It made you the Sister that I looked up to. Now I see you and you seem happy, but you also seem so wrapped up in Cole that you have become blind to what he is or was.
He is thoughtless, and doesn't care what he says to me. I understand that I am not the most accepting person when it comes to him. I don't trust him, and I don't let that fact stay hidden. However I have tried to be accepting of him, it just doesn't help when he openly tells me that he is glad that my timeline didn't happen here. That to me says that he is glad that you didn't become that strong woman that I looked up to. It means that he is glad that Piper and Leo didn't get married and have two amazing and very powerful sons. It means that he is glad that I am not the Paige that I am today, and that is just too hurtful for me to even deal with.
He makes me feel unwelcome in the house. He makes me feel unwelcome in general, and every time he speaks to me it feels like a lie. I am sorry, I know that isn't what you wanted to hear, but that is the truth of the matter, and you know me I am not about to keep quiet about anything.
So I think we all need to talk. So when you get this come find me. Hey you can call my name and I can test out my nifty Whitelighter Skills.
Paige
[/letters]
[locked to Chris]
Hey. This place sucks. Cole is an ass. Piper is dating some shmuck. No one is out actually killing Demons. You are always somewhere else, no doubt with some girl. I am stuck here in the Manor with the Ex-Source of all Evil, which hey I don't think you can really be. I have thought up a plan to make my sisters see what my timeline was like, but the Transfer Memories Spell isn't in the Book. Cause this timeline is CRAZY and doesn't have it. I need your help, and also I am hopefully going to have a sit down with Phoebe and Piper about all this, and having a bit of back up? Might help.
[/locked]
[private]
Paige sets the letter to Piper in her room on the table beside her bed. Phoebe's though is a bit tricky. She needs to put it somewhere that Cole won't be all snooping at it. So she decides to put it in Phoebe's purse, beneath the tampon. It might be a bit before she gets it but at least Paige is sure that Cole won't be rifling through the Feminine Protection these days.
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