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Moment to Be Proud Of
Jun. 4th, 2005 05:10 pmAt what moment in your life did you feel most proud?
Pride is a pretty tricky word when you think about it. Pretty tricky to deal with, and even more difficult to ignore. I want to start listing off all the great accomplishments that I have had in my own life, but that is where it starts to get hazy.
Are those moments great because of me? Or because of the actual events. Can I be proud of a moment instead of the person, or are those things connected forever to be entwined. That the person makes the moment or is it that the moment makes the person.
Either way pride isn't something that is good to have. Pride makes you less cautious, less careful. It allows your vision to become clouded and hazy. In my experience it is better to just stay focused. Look ahead, instead of back.
However if I was to really narrow it down to just one thing, I know what it would be.
I just wouldn't want it to get in the way of my own future.
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Phoebe was in love with Cole. I knew it then and I am sure a part of her still does love him. She had to overcome all her doubt and fears and all the love that she had shared with him in order to take the next step forward. She had to stand by the sides of her sisters and vanquish the one person that she thought she could trust. The one person she thought she would be with forever.
I stood beside her and watched her gain all her strength from within herself. From within our support and make the one choice she had to. In the time it took her to finish the spell with us and cast the bottle towards him I was so proud of her.
Proud that she could do this hurtful thing. Proud that she realized it was what had to be done.
Proud that she survived it.
I just hope one day she knows that all the strength I think I have gained over the years, I gained from watching her.
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Pride is a pretty tricky word when you think about it. Pretty tricky to deal with, and even more difficult to ignore. I want to start listing off all the great accomplishments that I have had in my own life, but that is where it starts to get hazy.
Are those moments great because of me? Or because of the actual events. Can I be proud of a moment instead of the person, or are those things connected forever to be entwined. That the person makes the moment or is it that the moment makes the person.
Either way pride isn't something that is good to have. Pride makes you less cautious, less careful. It allows your vision to become clouded and hazy. In my experience it is better to just stay focused. Look ahead, instead of back.
However if I was to really narrow it down to just one thing, I know what it would be.
I just wouldn't want it to get in the way of my own future.
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Phoebe was in love with Cole. I knew it then and I am sure a part of her still does love him. She had to overcome all her doubt and fears and all the love that she had shared with him in order to take the next step forward. She had to stand by the sides of her sisters and vanquish the one person that she thought she could trust. The one person she thought she would be with forever.
I stood beside her and watched her gain all her strength from within herself. From within our support and make the one choice she had to. In the time it took her to finish the spell with us and cast the bottle towards him I was so proud of her.
Proud that she could do this hurtful thing. Proud that she realized it was what had to be done.
Proud that she survived it.
I just hope one day she knows that all the strength I think I have gained over the years, I gained from watching her.
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