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[EM] 18 - Selfish
Oct. 14th, 2006 09:54 amOh I've been I'm selfish.
I know it.
Well it's not my fault, not really. You go from being an only child raised by your adoptive parents, who for a lack of a better reason probably did a bit too much for their rebellious teen, to being the baby sister in a family that was already pretty well established? That makes everything a bit more tricky.Not even Magick tricky.
So I was selfish when I first found out about having sisters, because it was a lot to consider. Take away all the instant family stuff and it was just a bit more than overwhelming.
[locked from those that do not know Magick exists]
So I maybe, kinda, sorta... stole... the Book of Shadows. I didn't quite grasp that whole Personal Gain thing, because well to be honest things were pretty crazy in that house and I was the last thing on their mind. So I borrowed the book. Well Piper will still probably claim I stole it, which in all fairness looking back on it? I pretty much agree.
At the time I wasn't even slightly prepared for what sort of power I had, let alone could unleash on the world. That whole power corrupts and all that? Sorta true. Oh, and the power requires responsibility thing too, I am a firm believer in that.
It was just so tempting to try and just fix everything that was getting all messed up in my life. I figured what good was the power if I couldn't use it to make things a teeny bit easier on myself. The big boobs that came from it all though? Yeah lesson learned.
Well maybe not, because we've all done somethings in the Magick community that could be viewed as not exactly kosher... is Kosher the right word? Do Jewish terms translate to the Magickal world? Anyway, we've all took risks and paid the price. Truth spells, love spells, lots of spells that end up costing us a bit more than we bargained for in the end.
At least in the end though? We know that we messed up, and we learn from it.
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I know it.
Well it's not my fault, not really. You go from being an only child raised by your adoptive parents, who for a lack of a better reason probably did a bit too much for their rebellious teen, to being the baby sister in a family that was already pretty well established? That makes everything a bit more tricky.
So I was selfish when I first found out about having sisters, because it was a lot to consider. Take away all the instant family stuff and it was just a bit more than overwhelming.
[locked from those that do not know Magick exists]
So I maybe, kinda, sorta... stole... the Book of Shadows. I didn't quite grasp that whole Personal Gain thing, because well to be honest things were pretty crazy in that house and I was the last thing on their mind. So I borrowed the book. Well Piper will still probably claim I stole it, which in all fairness looking back on it? I pretty much agree.
At the time I wasn't even slightly prepared for what sort of power I had, let alone could unleash on the world. That whole power corrupts and all that? Sorta true. Oh, and the power requires responsibility thing too, I am a firm believer in that.
It was just so tempting to try and just fix everything that was getting all messed up in my life. I figured what good was the power if I couldn't use it to make things a teeny bit easier on myself. The big boobs that came from it all though? Yeah lesson learned.
Well maybe not, because we've all done somethings in the Magick community that could be viewed as not exactly kosher... is Kosher the right word? Do Jewish terms translate to the Magickal world? Anyway, we've all took risks and paid the price. Truth spells, love spells, lots of spells that end up costing us a bit more than we bargained for in the end.
At least in the end though? We know that we messed up, and we learn from it.
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